I don’t really know myself at all.
I’m very stable these days. It occurs to me that stability leads only to death. It seems that the tumultuous volatility of youth is “life” and we lose a bit of that each year until we achieve stability and finally die. Perhaps I will finally know myself on my deathbed. Or not. Who knows? Or cares?
you won’t
but you won’t care
you’ll be thinking “where is my next brea…”
but getting there, ah that could be useful knowledge
no instruction there?
no “be like reg and you won’t be a fat schizophrenic”?
or maybe you just offered an explanation of your entertainment you get from him?
others have their reasons
i just have excuses
Oh, that’s what you’re talking about? This is a little dance Mark and I have done for 25 years. He was on the Zone with you (and Will, and Dan, and Michele). He posts the disgusting garbage that he eats and I tell him he’ll never lose weight if he eats that crap. I’ve recently slowed down that latter part, although if he asks me a direct question (as he did tonight), I will sometimes answer it, and if he posts something unusually nasty, I might say something helpful like, “God, totally disgusting”. I also suggested he lose 170 lb the other day, which was impolite of me but he was goading me and I am a very imperfect person.
I’ve never made fun of his schizophrenia in any way. He calls me on the phone occasionally and I just ignore it if he disconnects from reality. There may be better ways to handle it but that’s the only way I know.
oh
well
if you’ve done it for 25 years
it must be what you say
otherwise
it would have evolved
i got that one wrong
Oh it has evolved. Everything has in that time.
Michele used to hang out with some chick named Jane and flirt with everyone on the then-new technology of audio-chat. Now she thumps her Bible and posts conspiracy theories online, which is no more or less useful than how any of us spend our lives.
Mark, well, I’ll just say he’s changed but I note that he always made an effort to be as unpleasant as possible and still does. Perhaps that’s a defense mechanism. I don’t know enough to say. Our interactions have always been an odd mix of confrontation, insults and trust.
Will used to drink a lot. As far as I can tell, he’s stopped totally now. He has less patience with Mark than I do. I don’t begrudge him that. Nobody owes anyone else patience.
Dan is the closest to normal here. He was studying to be a lab tech then. Now he’s 40, married, a homeowner, and very senior in his profession at his hospital.
Nico (thinkingaboutit) used to post simplistic platitudes online trying to look wise. He still does that. He always used to freak out at the thought of anyone knowing anything about him. He still does that, too. He’s Dutch so we don’t expect much. (This is also a little dance I’ve done with him for 25 years, btw.)
I went from the overwhelming stress of crushing debt in a 24/7 business to selling it to Asian investors, getting married and moving to a tiny village in the High Andes of South America where I lived for 4 years. I’ve since moved to Medellín where I’ve spent the last 2, although I plan to leave this city soon. I’m hoping to move to Africa or Europe next but I’ll head back to my apartment in Canada and wait for this covid stuff to settle before making any plans.
You…well, while I remember much, only you know what you’ve been through. Your correspondence was always spotty. 
Evolution has been a positive for most of us.
blogging for jesus
I should also mention Daniel, even though he’s “only” been here a decade or so. In that time, he’s cycled through white nationalism, hardcore radical Islam, Christian Identity (another extremist racialist cult), extremist Judaism, weird homoerotic Russian and Czech all-male thrash festivals, goat sex, and now extreme isolation cults like the Amish, Mennonites and Hutterites. He has two mixed-race children with a Peruvian woman who appears to have dumped him and he doesn’t consider that inconsistent with his white nationalist leanings. He splits his time between Spain and Germany, where he used to post photos of the most disgusting trailer I think I’ve ever seen which he lived in. He needs to lose some weight, too, but he likes obese women so it matters little in his case.
You know I talked to some hikers. One was even a biologist and teacher. Hiking is different from just doing a treadmill. The ground is uneven and the earth often sinks unpredictably. Your legs and body may feel the same way, almost like you have to reclaim them from the grass and soil with every step. For people really climbing up a mountain there was a recommendation. Find a butcher shop where they sold old dry sausages like salami at the base before going up. Carbs and protein are both 4 calories a gram, but fat is a superior 9. And per weight ratio the energy of the sausage with all its hard packed protein and fat beats anything else.
But maybe you know this. Like I said earlier I was also told by a nutrition expert and read in some research 90%+ of fat was eliminated from the body in urine.
Maybe you should buy yourself a a mini salami before going to the urinal.
That’s how long you go and that is what determines the flow. That’s really the only time you have it.
It would make a nice riddle.
Where did you lose it? Is it pointless looking for it?
Maybe you should read Pinocchio before bed tonight.
Or adjust your proton pack settings.
Really just tired of hearing it.
narrowminded but interesting view and description of the regulars here
of course i do not believe i try to look wise (although iam much better at chess than reg), i do not freak out and i choose who knows anything about me and what i share
still its nice to hear that i remained my youthful self, did not evolve and stayed the same
(what is youthful, not evolving, the same and positive to one… )
I am still quite agile and gyms are closed to my defense.
When it comes to women, I prefer the walrus-shape lately.
I like female behinds that’d put a brewery horse in his place, especially when they’re bending over 
PS: AFAIK, Pastor Lindstedt’s wife had an enormous behind…
I am a man of steep learning curve and great success when it comes to adaption and improvement.
I can’t even talk to people who are reading the same type of books as they did a decade ago.
What I need is a rising community, full of revelations, a bit egdy and a massive resurrection in their midth.
Expect nothing less!
Like a solar outburst pushing forth, we’re the frontline of the avantgarde here on bbad.
Discussing the most edgy stuff available.
I’m not surprised that this is the only memory of me that you have. I talked to Jane from Houston a few times and I did join you and her in ONE (you liar) 2 minute audio call after which, you broadcasted to everyone in Park Bench that we sounded the same. So much for discretion!
You are such a liar. I never mention God here. If I do it’s only because someone says something that opens that door. To say I thump my Bible implies that I shove Gods precious Word down your throat and try to make you digest it. That is just not true, Reg. Nothing else would fit in your big mouth.
While it may be true that I’ve posted some things about globalist conspiracies against the world, it is not unlike your own insistence that we buy in to your ridiculous and unfounded conspiracies about 9/11.
If you weren’t so thoughtless, you would have mentioned Gunda also.